“find that strength” Marta Vaarik

“find that strength” Marta Vaarik

“i know why people pray in that position. you are at your most humble then. when there is nothing left to do, you finally lie down, rest your head on your hands, fold your legs up tight under your belly and stretch your arms out, fingers splayed, and with your palms softly patting the ground you beg. and beg. just please! please stop. i’m scared. i’m scared for myself and for the child. of everything already. i haven’t been beaten, but i’m always afraid i’ll get a beaten. when i don’t want to have sex. sex is mental. but he doesn’t care. i feel what connects me to all the women in the world who have been abused, dominated and used. queens and witches. i understood. i am weaker. if he wants, he can kill me. hurt me badly. rape me. my strength does not overpower him. i am in my home and this is the most unsafe place. but at least i’m beautiful. new nike sneakers lift my mood and are soft to step in. like life would be easier. i find comfort in the beauty salon. beautiful things soothe my mind. nobody knows or imagines how badly i actually am. i’m beautiful and beautiful people’s lives are supposed to be easier.”

Estonia tops the statistics for domestic violence in europe; every second woman in Estonia has experienced domestic violence. If you need help, search for and find that strength to leave an abusive relationship. Trust your instincts. Don’t be afraid to call the police — you could save yourself and your children from violence. Call now, prevent a crime. Dial now 112. Most victims of intimate partner violence are women, because they are often physically and economically weaker than men. However, men can also suffer from intimate partner violence. It’s important that anyone dares to seek help regardless of their gender.

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